“When he came down from the mountain, great crowds followed him; and behold, a leper came to him and knelt before him, saying, “Lord, if you will, you can make me clean.” And he stretched out his hand and touched him, saying, “I will; be clean.” And immediately his leprosy was cleansed. And Jesus said to him, “See that you say nothing to anyone; but go, show yourself to the priest, and offer the gift that Moses commanded, for a proof to the people.” (Mt 8:1-4)
Musings of the Healed Leper ….
“It has been many years since I really felt happy and relaxed.
Ever since I had contracted this dreadful and detesting disease I could hardly laugh.
It was the social stigma attached to this disease which pained me more than the disease itself.
I was an untouchable.
I was an outcast.
I was treated as unclean.
I was isolated and boycotted.
I was considered to be bearing the brunt of my own sins And the sins of my ancestors!!!!!
I just couldn’t understand!
So I kept asking… questioning! !
Oh, Mighty Yahweh, My God,
Why on earth have you done this to me?
What have I done so bad that you have punished with such a terrible sickness?
I am no saint.
But at the same time, except for the occasional breaking Your Commandments, I honestly can’t recall doing anything so heinous a sin that I am punished so severely?
Besides, there are so many others who have been perpetrating evil even before I was born.
And they seem to thrive!
I just don’t understand!
Well, who am I to question you? …
I kept on juggling with these and similar thoughts for quite a while!
Then a kind of a sad silence began to creep in me which gradually grounded me on to bouts of suicidal depression !!
In the meantime, my parents and the rest of the family kept on taking me to different country physicians, holy men, as well as Venerable Rabbis.
But of no use.
In fact it was becoming worse…
Wounds started to fester… oozing out puss with the stench of rotten flesh!
I was pronounced a leper and was deported to isolation camps of similar people.
We were quarantined!
Years of pain, anguish, anger, depression inched away!
Slowly the once festering began to dry up…
But my fingers and toes began to be deformed!
Since the festering wounds had dried up with no more stench coming out we were let free..
So I wandered around aimlessly!
I wanted to live..
I wanted get healed!
Everyday i dreamed of getting healed.
Went around Shrines praying!
People began to give me food… clothes and money etc.
I kept on dreaming getting healed!
I had heard about miracles performed by a certain Young Rabbi called Jesus.
Some thought of him Divine.. the Messiah!
Anyhow his compassion and caring approach was the talk among the ordinary folks.
I wished often: I had met him!
It so happened!
I heard him passing by the village.
I rushed ..pushed the crowd. .
Managed to be nearer to him.
I did call out:
“Lord, if you will, you can make me clean.” And he stretched out his hand and touched him, saying,
“I will; be clean”
And i am healed!
I couldn’t believe my eyes!
My Yahweh hasn’t abandoned me!
Great is Your Name!”
Oh, Healed Brother,
Thank you for sharing your Musings.
You had been through a lot, right?
I do admire you :
for your sheer frankness,
for your enduring patience,
for your indomitable perseverance,
for your Unflinching faith.
Dear Jesus, the Risen Lord,
You do always want me to be clean, Don’t You?
Provided I approach you with an earnest request.
It’s me who do not often come to you with an earnest desire and with an honest request.
It looks like that at times I don’t like to be healed.
I am ashamed of my dislike to get healed.
In those situations do force me to face You
So that you are able to heal me!
Do it Lord, Do it!
Dear Jesus, the Risen Lord,
I bring before you:
Everyone of my loved ones.
Everyone of my enemies who were and are.
Everyone who loves as well as hates me.
Everyone whom I love and whom i hate.
Everyone who helps me and who doesn’t.
Everyone whom i have lead astray.
Everyone who is sick and needs healing.
Everyone who is in despair and needs hope.
Every priest who is in need of prayers.
Everyone who has met with me!
Oh, Jesus, My Lord and My God,
I thank You,
I thank the Father,
I thank the Spirit,
For Your Unsolicited gift of life for me!
For Your Uncountable blessings for me!
For Your Unlimited patience with me!
For Your Untold forgiveness for me!
For Your Unflinching faith in me!
For Your Unfailing hope in me!
For Your Unconditional Love of me!